Ok, I've been deciding whether I write this or don't, and I made the decision to do it because of the things that happened on yesterday's evening.
Even though I failed on a lot of subjects at university, my parents told me that I could study in an institute to become an English translator. So right now (no joking) I'm studying for the entrance exam on february. If I fail this one, I'll have to enter again at the university...
And for what happened yesterday... I'm in a development team called Team Mystique that will make a Touhou fangame called Touhou Yatsugatake ~ Reawakening of Youkai Mountain, whose principal creator is and I applied to being part of the musicians because she wanted help with composing themes, and she allowed me to be part of a great group, where everyone support everyone. I re-arranged one of her themes because she wanted me to correct some parts, and I actually did. It was like 1 year without opening FL Studio, and she really made me to open it and work on it again. It was a really good experience, and she really liked what I did, I think most of the group thought that it was well done!
We were progressing, step by step, doing what we can do better. She was doing it too, but she had a problem that I would never wish to no one. She was jelaous of other artists that were ahead us with their projects, she was anxious because we weren't going fast enough for her, and she was depressed because she didn't feel like she was making any progress. We were there for her every day, trying to cheer her up and help her if she had a problem writing, drawing or composing. All people in the team are so nice, they really are good people. But these days she wasn't well at all, she was losing hope so fast we had problems cheering her up. I'm really worried about her.
Yesterday her mother became aware that her daughter is depressed, and took her laptop away and tried to investigate what was going on. She even talked with us and treat us like we were the roots of her problems, that she was bullied and other things...if only she could listen to her talented daughter. Now she can't be online anymore for an unknown time. We decided to take a break from the project and live our lives normally, but all of us are sad about what happened. I hope we continue it while she's gone.
I don't know how to raise a child, but I know her mother wants the best for her child. I feel this is not the way to do it, but I respect her decision. I don't know how much time will pass until she comes back, but I don't care if it's weeks, months, years, whatever, I'll wait and I'll be composing for her.
Meanwhile, if I can join another team, I'll do it. I don't know if I can find one as good as this one...